In the past, so many friends, strangers, and family have complimented me daily, saying that I was beautiful, but I never believed it. I realized that even though people will tell you what they see, it won’t become true until you realize it yourself. What they didn’t know that their portrayal of me was the complete opposite of what I thought about myself. “Oh, you’re so beautiful.” they say... I smile and say “thank you.” but never had I ever meant it. Because in my eyes, it wasn’t true. But then, I started gaining some confidence.
I stopped wearing makeup to school, so that was some progress. I used to wear a FULL FACE of makeup to school everyday, all because of my pimples and the dark circles under my eyes.
You have to believe in yourself to feel good about yourself. It wasn’t until late 2018 that I had the utmost confidence and I believed I actually was pretty.
I still struggle with low confidence and low self esteem due to my skin, but it’s not nearly as bad as it used to be. I won’t put up a front and say that I am completely free of insecurity, because I’m not. We all get insecure sometimes, and that’s okay.
I still have scars and blemishes, I still breakout ALL the time on the right side of my face, I still get stress acne, period acne, everything acne.
There are still days where my self esteem hits rock bottom, but there are also days where I feel like the prettiest girl on earth!
For all of those people out there who are struggling with low self esteem and low confidence, I’m telling you,
YOU WILL MAKE IT. YOU WILL MAKE IT. YOU WILL MAKE IT.
One day you’ll find yourself looking into the mirror saying, “Oh.. I AM handsome” or “I AM beautiful.” and you’ll actually mean it.
“You are not your makeup, not your clothes, an anonymous face that know one knows. You’re not a skin color, a pretty face, the number of inches around your waist.... You’re worth it” (Cimorelli)
Do not ever think that because you have skin discoloration, stretch marks, acne, eczema, or scars, that you’re not a million bucks!!!! Because you are and you’re beautiful! Even when it feels like there is nothing to live for because of the way that you LOOK, know that there is. It’s okay to be emotional, to cry, or to feel hurt. Tell yourself that you are beautiful.
Everything takes time. But you WILL make it. <3
I love helping people out or being an inspiration or even just making someone’s day. With that being said, you can keep up with my journey on Instagram @jadlyssa and any questions you have, ask away! And don’t be afraid to talk to me whenever you’re feeling down. Queens support queens. (And kings!)