"WHAT'S ON MY FACE DOESN'T TAKE AWAY WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER THE WORLD."
Seriously, acne scars suck. I still struggle with acne but my biggest foe right now is my scarring and post inflammatory hyper-pigmentation (PIH). I have both red and brown spots all over my skin and it is very obvious with my fair skin. I also have some raised and concave scars on my face, so literally the worst texture issues you could imagine. My skin really said, “Here, you get to have ALL the scarring possible.”
It has taken a while for me to get used to and accept my face. This is the same face I was born with, the same face I have always had, just with some scarring. What’s on my face doesn’t take away what I have to offer to the world. I know its cheesy but it’s the truth. It’s so difficult seeing almost EVERYONE with perfect skin because I look at myself like, “what’s wrong with me?”
"THE LESS TIME I SPENT LOOKING AT MYSELF AND DWELLING ON WHAT WAS 'WRONG' HELPED ME TO BE MORE AWARE OF EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON AROUND ME."
Obviously nothing, I’m perfect, I’m the best thing that ever happened to my friends, family, and anyone that ever meets me. But seriously, I love my face and I have accepted it. It took some time but I’ve moved into a place of not wearing makeup everyday. I used to wear a full face of makeup everywhere I went which meant I had to wake up early so I had at least 2 hours to get ready and this really was such a burden. Sidenote: I’m 22 but I look like a child and makeup also made me feel as if I looked older. I just decided to stop doing that to myself PLUS I wanted to give my skin a chance to breathe.
I started by wearing no makeup on the weekends. Then instead of a full face, I slowly began to just wear concealer under my eyes and on the super intense red marks. Eventually, I just stepped out the house with nothing on. The thing that made me self-conscious was always being around mirrors because I have a ton of mirrors in my home; the less time I spent looking at myself and dwelling on what was “wrong” helped me to be more aware of everything else going on around me.
Once I started getting my facials, my confidence really shot up because I had hope that my face was healing and that’s when I truly stopped wearing makeup. I never thought I’d get to that point. But now that I’m going around bare faced, I feel like I look even younger so I’m still struggling with that battle and not worrying about how I’m perceived. Looking young has always been something that has affected me because in most cases, younger people get treated differently and don’t get taken seriously and I always experience this but that’s another story. I’m at a place where I can accept my skin and wearing makeup isn’t a burden anymore and it’s something that actually excites me.